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WHERE IS GOD IN TIMES OF SUFFERING ?

I take the topic of health personally, very personally. Because, you see, I have been on the other end of an all-out onslaught to stop, maim, and kill me for my entire life. One of the main weapons used against me was physical illness, disease, and false approaches to “health”.

My friends are my family and when they’re sick, I can feel it. When my husband and daughter are sick, I feel it. It’s no wonder I decided to become a doctor of natural medicine. I had to. I couldn’t find the right doctor for me so I became one.

I view things differently – it’s life and death and the fight goes beyond people.

It’s principalities. It’s spiritual. It’s personal.

Maybe you can imagine my irritation upon realizing that my family is now fighting what has been termed “C-V” (for the second time). Yeah, not happy. We take all the right supplements and vitamins. We eat biblically clean. We nebulize and diffuse all the things. We’ve already been thru a round of this junk, last year, so I thought we were beyond it.

It just goes to show you how aggressive this illness is. How pointed it is. How it can target anyone.

It’s principalities. It’s spiritual. It’s personal.

So we keep taking the right supplements and vitamins. We’re still nebulizing and diffusing all the things. I have plans. I have back up plans – all for “just in case”. Some of it is a waiting game. It’s all being bathed in prayer.

And as the world is full of bad news, loved ones clinging to life…and some losing theirs, wars, rumors of wars, increased hatred among people, etc. – the literal war for our lives increases. Everyone is being affected, deeply, by one thing or another. One has to wonder where GOD is in all of it.

So, I asked. Yeah, I asked Yeshua (Jesus) this morning where He was in all of it. I know what the Bible says and I believe it. But I still needed to hear from Him.

And I found Him……sitting down on the beach of a lake. He was skipping rocks into the water. It wasn’t for sport or fun. He was waiting. And He seemed irritated. I sat down beside Him. We sat in silence, together, as I watched Him skipping the rocks over and into the water.

He’s really good at it. Each rock stayed above the water for a long time before being pulled down by their weight. A feat that I tried, as a child, but never quite succeeded at – not consistently anyways.

The sky was ablaze with pinks, and purples, as the sun set low in the distance. He had been here a long time. Waiting. Irritated. His brow furrowed. His hand clinched as He hurled each rock into the lake.“

This had to happen,“ He said, his gaze remained on the water. And He just kept skipping those rocks in. I dare not ask why this had to happen but I knew that He was referring to what we were all going thru, on a personal scale as well as world-wide. It wasn’t just about me or my family.

Of course, He knew that I was wondering “why”, even though I didn’t ask. He answered me: “It’s principalities.”

Then He forcefully skipped a rock into the lake.

“It’s spiritual.” Another rock went in.

“It’s personal.” Another rock hurled in.

He stopped skipping rocks at that point. In this solemn understanding, we sat. For the very battle I had fought all of my life – with all the feelings attached – were His feelings in this moment.

And He had to keep waiting for now. We all do. And it’s hard. It’s irritating.

I thought of how He whittled that tree branch into a whip, that one time. While He whittled, He waited. And that’s where we are right now – in that moment of tension, that moment of wait, of irritation.

He turned to me. Our eyes met. “Thank you for sitting with me.”He was grateful for MY company. Mine?

He offered no promises of things turning out okay. That all seems a bit trite now anyways, don’t you think.

But He said this:“I’m with you, always.”

“Oh hey (yes, Yeshua said “hey”) it’s your birthday today. I’m sorry, but you gift is going to be late this year.” Then He turned His gaze back to the lake and began skipping rocks again.

“Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the Lord, and He will have mercy on him; And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.

“For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, and do not return there, but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void,

But it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.“ For you shall go out with joy, and be led out with peace; The mountains and the hills shall break forth into singing before you, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress tree, and instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree; and it shall be to the Lord for a name,

For an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.” — Isaiah 55:6-13

If you are currently enduring a time of suffering, please know that you are NOT alone. GOD IS with you. He is guiding you, and loving you, thru it all.

Shalom to you,

Lamb of GOD passover Celebration

Spring is such an exciting time for a Hebraic Yeshua follower – Passover followed up by the Feast of Unleavened Bread gives us ample opportunity to draw closer to our Messiah, as well as to our family. I love walking out a faith that requires physical, do-able displays like getting the leaven out of our homes, eating unleavened bread, and getting the table ready. In addition, we are to go about preparing our hearts to get rid of anything that is not of GOD and seek more of our Messiah.

It is all too easy, however, to get caught up in traditions of men rather than biblical instruction. In an attempt to get everything “right”, we often get tripped up by things that are not required by our Heavenly Father. This truly is the antithesis of the shalom that HE will provide when we humbly seek Him and celebrate His Ways with His Spirit as our guide. It is my desire to encourage you to keep things simple and keep the main thing (Yeshua) the main thing.

Below, is a simple, but meaningful, Passover Service that I have written. Feel free to download it and/or print it out. There are a few supplies that you will need to gather ahead of time and it is encouraged to share in a meal, after this service has been completed.

For more information, on Passover, check out this previous blog post: https://shalomtotalwellness.com/2020/04/09/passover-season-of-miracles/

Have a blessed Passover season!

“Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.” — 3 John 1:2

passover: season of miracles

Whether you celebrated Passover last week, this week, or will next month with “Second Passover”, the truth remains – THIS IS The PASSOVER SEASON! And what a wonderful season it is!

As I am writing this, the U.S. (and most of the world population) is currently in “quarantine” for COVID 19. What an amazing time to observe Passover…when we are being forced by political officials to remain in our homes..as we pray that all that has come with the “virus” truly passes over us.

May we remember what the Hebrews endured and how YHWH instructed them to stay in their homes, eat lamb, eat unleavened bread, and be ready to leave Egypt once instructed to do so. As the angel of death moved through their communities, he would pass over each house that had the blood of a lamb over its doorposts.

May we remember all the miracles YHWH performed for the Hebrews as well as for His own Name’s sake and glory.

So too, Jesus/Yeshua, gave His life to be our Passover lamb. It is His blood, on the doorposts of our hearts, that saves us. Truly, salvation through Messiah must be the most incredible miracle of them all!

“My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand.” — John 10:27-28

Unfortunately, many think of Passover as a feast for the Jews only. However, knowing that this celebration is actually a feast of YHWH GOD and is to be kept, as a feast, throughout all of our generations is a total game changer (Exodus 12:14).

Just like we are told to rid our homes of leaven (Exodus 12:20), Paul tells us to rid ourselves of the spiritual leaven (sin, traditions rather than biblical instructions, strongholds, unbelief, etc) in our lives in the following verse:

“Therefore purge out the old leaven, that you may be a new lump, since you truly are unleavened.” — 1 Corinthians 5:7a

Paul goes on to confirm that Messiah IS our Passover and that we are to “keep the feast” in the following verses:

“For indeed Christ, our Passover, was sacrificed for us. Therefore let us keep the feast, not with old leaven, nor with the leaven of malice and wickedness, but with the unleavened bread of sincerity and truth.” –1 Corinthians 7b-8

I pray that you will consider observing Passover this year. Don’t get tripped up by what day to celebrate – just do it. As of now, we are still in the season. Lean into this special season by meditating on how Jesus/Yeshua is your Passover Lamb.

Ask GOD if there is anything in your life that needs to be purged and begin taking steps to get rid of those things. Make room in your life for more of GOD’s presence.

May GOD’ s peace overwhelm you. May His love comfort you. And may the protection, and salvation, that comes to you through Yeshua the Messiah become real to you. May His holy miracles become common place in your life as you seek His face more and more. You are so very loved now…and always.

Shalom and Blessed Passover to you!



“Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.” 3 John 1:2